The needle ran away with the spoon....

I'm sure plenty of you are aware, but I thought I'd mention it. I quit smoking pot back in November, so I've been completely clean (I don't drink), so I guess I've been straight-edge for 2 months on the 20th. Feels pretty good I guess. Definitely glad I stopped toking. I've found my moods to be much more consistent and easier to recover when things go bad. I've had better sleep, I can recall more dreams, but perhaps this is simply because I can now meditate before sleeping since I'm not so burned out. Will I toke again? Probably, but not for a while. I don't miss it yet, and any reasons I used to smoke faded with time until aside from the social aspect, there was really no motivation to smoke up. It was pushing me towards depression, as I couldn't help but dwell on any negative thought that came my way. Having energy is nice too, although I REALLY need to do something since I haven't been active for like a week, except for walks. As for other drugs... Definitely not eager to do mushrooms again until I feel that I've evolved enough to deal with what they do to me. Mushrooms seem to be my nemesis, and I know it sounds really bizarre, but I will conquer them. Doesn't mean I'll start doing them all the time, but mushrooms bring a lot of stuff to the surface, so it can act as an indication of where you're at in life. I'm interested in doing acid again, probably more than any other drug, because I've had the least experience with it, yet I've had tons of fun, even tough I've only ever done really shitty acid. I've got this incredibly potent hit that Roland gave me that I'm too much of a wimp to eat even half of, cuz I know it'll be 12 hours till I'm even remotely back to 'normal'. I see a lot of potential in acid though, and it's worked quite well with me in nature. I've done it 3 times while camping and don't have any complaints, which is rare for any drug. I'm really not interested right now in doing E again. I only did E at Shambhala's, but I didn't this year because I started to wonder what it was doing to me and if it influenced my winter-depression. I may do E again at Shambhala, but not for a few years. Then there's Salvia, and if you don't know, don't ask, but I will definitely hit that shit up before anything else. However, for now, staying clean is working for me, and doing drugs in the winter doesn't appeal to me too much anyways.

I think whenit comes to drugs, and well everything else in life too, 'attitude' makes or breaks. My outlook on drugs from the beginning was, in my opinion, very honorable and pure. I've never used drugs to escape from reality, I use them as a tool to explore my mind and the world around me. To learn, to live, to love. Even at a calgary rave back in the day, I'd learn many lessons throughout the night, whether I tripped good or bad, and I've never learned more about myself then when I'm high at Shambhala. I never did drugs often enough to consider it a problem, although if I hadn't stopped doing mushrooms, that might've been concern (30 times in 2 years I think). I've only done E 5 separate nights, and even then, only at Shambhala. Smoked Salvia about 6 times and dropped acid probably 5 times. However, not everyone has self-control, so even if their intentions start out pure, they don't end that way, especially with E. I've never done coke, never will, and consider it to be the dirtiest of popular drugs. How can you have a positive outlook when you're a cokehead? Boggles the mind. Too many people do coke. My traditional circle of friends seems largely untouched by the cokedemic (coke+epidemic, i thought it was clever), but even a few of them have tried it. I've heard way too many people doing coke in Golden, it seriously started to freak me out for a while, especially since I knew that I was probably not even hearing the full truth. Coke is a closet drug. You're more likely to hear if someone's gay than whether they do coke. Anyways, let's not dwell on the negativity too much. I'm currently in the process of typing out my drug history for a few select people who have requested my thoughts on drugs. It will likely exceed 20,000 words, as I have a wealth of personal opinions on the subject. To each his own right? Something always bothered me though. Whenever I'd stop doing drugs, those around me would act like 'I told you so', or feel all high and mighty cuz they'd think I was back on their level. Let me make one thing clear: If you haven't done drugs, and/or have a family member that's an ex-cokehead (for example), then you're opinion is most likely of noe value whatsoever. If I ever decide to quit drugs forever, it's not like I'm back at square one. I've learned WAY too much for anyone too tell me they 'told me so' unless it was from their own experiences. I'm not trying to seem all high and mighty myself, but please be cautious of the condescending tone you use if you're talking to someone that does/has done drugs. It's you that's sounding like an ignoramus, not them. One last thought. If the government took all the money it spends on enforcing drug laws (grow op hunts, court time for offenders, filling jail cells, narc and undercover cops, drug dogs, etc) and put it all into UNBIASED drug education, do you think we'd have the problems we do today, where people are too scared to get the help they need, where teens can see past the propaganda and decide to experiment themselves to find out the truth, and where the single largest group of inmates are drug offenders?

It's great to learn, cuz KNOWLEDGE IS POWER....

I'd like some feedback on this one. Preferably thoughtful, non-reactionary feedback.....

Related tunes:
Immortal Technique - Peruvian Cocaine (awesome)
Dead Prez - Be Healthy
AK1200 - Blow (I know I've recommended these already)
Bob Marley - Legalize It
Rancid - California Sun
Saves the Day - At Your Funeral
NOFX - Drugs are Good, & Pharmacist's Daughter
Thought Riot - Sign of the Times
(tough to hear the words, lyrics are excellent though, awesome outro, these guys are so good)
Beatles w/ Jimi Hendrix - Day Tripper
Beatles - Lucy in the Sky With Diamonds, & Strawberry Fields
Ben Harper - The Drugs Don't Work
Sage Francis - Crack Pipes (stupid intro)
Lawgiverz - Luv (HA, good luck finding that one, but I've got in on soulseek, there's a crazy speech at the end)
Neil Young - The Needle and the Damage Done, & Leave the Driving

Neil Young wrote a song called Tonight's the Night, which was about his friend who OD'ed on heroin. My dad has one of the only live recordings of this track, because we know the deceased's brother. He's also the one who's daughter was a playmate (May 2000, i believe) and his brother was a part of Bob & Dean (beachboy-style group back in the day). Small world.....