Hate

Got a check from the government for 56 bucks. This brings the total to over $200 in unexplained checks this year. Dig it...

Finally got around to practicing my karate, so hopefully that ball starts rolling again. My sister did this Delphi Dice reading for me, which is sort've like Tarot cards, a few weeks ago and it put heavy emphasis on action and travel. So I figure that means I need to stay active and start making my traveling more of a priority. The problem is that I don't know if the springtime is a good time to get a job teaching in Mexico. Apparently most of the jobs aren't on the coast either. Plus I need a job that I can leave within a few months. Not looking good so far....

I'm really bummed that I didn't get to go to that party in Kelowna. Dancing my ass off for 8+ hours, especially with a dance partner like Trina, would've been such a release. We may go see Rise Against in Seattle next month, or maybe Krafty Kuts in Vancouver.

Well someone asked me a question in a comment that was left, but I can't seem to find that comment know (I'm notified by email when a comment is left). Anyways, the question was, "Is it possible to love someone so much that even when they hurt you, you find it impossible to hate them back?"

My short answer would be: I hope so. Why hate? Hate is such an intense emotion that we waste too time time and resources on. It seems to be related to our peace of mind. If we were crushed in a relationship, it is often necessary, for our precious ego's sake, to blame everything on the other person, which leads to us hating them for 'fucking everything up'. The flaws in that pattern of thinking are pretty apparent.... unless it happens to you. What good does hating do? Does it put us in a better mood. I think revenge is overrated and obviously sadistic. When you allow yourself to succumb to hate, your soiling your soul. The negative energy you direct at someone else isn't gonna follow them around. It's attached to you and no one else. You get what you put out. I think Jesus, Gandhi, the Dalai Lama, and Martin Luther King all had many more reasons to hate their oppressors than any of us will ever have. These men became great BECAUSE they refused to hate. They loved and felt genuine compassion for their so-called enemies. Buddhism has taught me to be thankful for my enemies. Who else will help me to become more patient? Who else will put my morals and ethics to the test? I refused to hate CJ. It was tempting at times, but because I refused to walk away, I've become infinitely more patient and understanding. It strained my compassion to the max and it's made me a better person because of it. Now if someone does something so vile that you have no choice but to walk away, there's nothing wrong with that. But don't hate them. You're only hurting yourself. They clearly aren't worth the effort, so just feel sorry for them, and move on. Refuse to hate....

Read Martin Luther King's "Strive Toward Freedom". Tell ya what, I got a copy from my Political Sciences class that I'll give away. It's out of print now, so this is a photocopied version. Nothing glamorous and the photos are barely visible, but it's definitely worth reading. Amazingly inspiring and convincing. His methods of non-violence are truly worthy of the utmost admiration. He does bring religion into the mix, but I don't feel this subtracts from the book's value. In fact, I believe I have more respect for Christianity because of him. The first person to leave a comment and tell me what day Martin Luther King was shot on, can have this copy. I'll even pay for the postage.

Listen to
Kyprios - Hate
He gave this speech in Golden when Sweatshop Union came to town, so some of you may recall it.